It's already June and I'm all the way in the mood for summer vacation. I'm glad I got to spend a few weekend hiking and camping trips already with my friends. And I'm 100% sure this summer is going to be the best summer ever. Well I say this about every summer and I'm saying that as a proud fall/winter season person.
But I am so looking forward about posting about my trips that are coming up!
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After over a week of living without Facebook, Instagram and Snapchat I am actually surprised by the impact it made in my life. I can tell from myself that I am in a better mood. And I don't have the constant need of checking what my "friends" are doing. I simply don't care, and not in a bad way. Because I love to listen to all of my friends what they are doing, when they want to tell me. But I care more about what I am doing right now and with my life. It took a lot to set my happiness first. Of course I am not in the best mood 24/7 but the majority of the time.
But on the other hand it was also really hard when I was bored. I didn't know what to do. Usually when I am on the train I just check various timelines, and this led me to thinking again if I should check on Facebook or Instagram. However I started to taking a lot of books with me to wherever I go and realized I have lots of time to read on the Bus and the train. I am really glad I made this change in my life and I hope it will be as easy this next 3 weeks. And I hope I can take this experience with me. I recommend every single person to think about how much time we spend on social media! And social media is not a bad thing, but how much time we actually waste by looking at unnecessary stuff. And how we could spend that time by doing something meaningful! After 3 stressful weeks of rearranging my and bestfriend and I finally managed to spend a day together. We started the day of with a pretty good breakfast at a local confectionery, which is famous for their brunches. If you need to get your head off work and school or whatever is bugging you, what is better than spending the day at a thermal bath? Saddly you weren't allowed to take any pictures but the view from the roof top pool was amazing. If you're ever in Zurich make sure to check it out.
A lot of my friends have been asking me why I haven't posted anything lately. Mainly because I have just been in a Christmas rush. I have been tying to get all the shopping done, Christmas dinners at my office and last exams before break. And on top of all of that I have been trying to get enough sleep, what hasn't really been working. But I am glad that yesterday I managed to get my last present.
Well I guess a lot of you feel the same way during Christmas time. Stressed out, trying to remember everything. But we all should remember to take a little time for us, get away from all the hectic stuff and calm down. I am looking forward to having enough time to post on regular bases again. First thing in case you didn't know, I was afraid to start school again after I came back. I thought I I wouldn't get any friends again or to feel left out again.
But I got friends, and I coulnd't wish for better ones. They had my back when I was going to a really rough time, supported me in any way. And I am really glad I got to meet those amazing people. No one can probably ever top my 16th birthday. It was one of the best evening during my exchange year. We were having a little fire and pizza. And some of my friends came too. And the best thing was probably the cake. And all of that by my best friend. I am really glad I got to have such a great friend.
This years birthday wasn't bad either I just imagined it different. But all my clostest friends came and we had a nice get together. It was mostly outside, and it's pretty cold during November in Switzerland. But we had a lot of blankets and mulled wine. Sadly I don't have many pictures to share here. My friends said they had a great time, so i guess it was a success. Have you ever felt like no one cares about you? Have you ever felt left out? Have you ever felt like no one hears you? If every single person would answer these questions truthfully, maybe we would be nicer to each other. Because I feel like that almost every single day. People are tired of getting hurt and build a wall around them. Just care about their on well being and not what the other person might feel. What makes me feel not wanted? It breaks my heart every time a little more going on Facebook, seeing my exchange student friends getting tagged in posts how much they are missed of people. It hurts to realize no one is missing you, no one ever thinks about you. And when I tell people how I am they are telling me I shouldn't be upset and not everything in their exchange year has been good and other stuff like that. Do you ever think how other people had it much worse than you? And none of them are complaining. But they should! People should know how much worse it could have went for them. How other people got treated and that not everything is perfect. Everyone is trying so hard to make it look like one perfect year. But not only does it hurt getting reminded how my past was, but it makes it much worse seeing how my friends here don't care about me.
Once again the feeling of being left out is coming back, when friends have big weekend plans but none of them bothers to ask you. Then sitting at home being on social media, watching how much fun they are having. Or trying to tell people how you are actually feeling today, but they say to your face they don't care. Or they don't even have time to listen. Or don't even hit me up with a small message. I am not trying to say it is all the time like this. But such moments hit you just once in a while. And it wouldn't even be that bad, when you know you got someone to lean on. I am not saying this because I want pitty of other people. I want you, to realize how your behaviour can have an impact on other people. Maybe even just a small message once in a while or call. Just know how you're treating people and think before you say something that could maybe hurt other people. There is been happening a lot in my life, and I still feel like I am doing nothing. School is going great. I have friends, I feel comfortable with and right now the classes aren't that hard. But just some teachers are making me furious. I feel like they have no common sense. Other than that, in school everything is going pretty well. SPENDING TIME WITH FAMILY AND FRIENDSI spend a lot of time with Lia and Maite. September 24thI went hiking with Maite on the Titlis. We had a lot of fun, even though we didn't get that far with hiking. On our way to Engelberg we saw Switzerland in different ways. And for a short stop we were in Lucerne. OKTOBERFEST 2016With Aline and Lia I went one week later to Munich. It was a crazy short trip. We went shopping in the morning until the afternoon and in the evening we went to the Wiesn. Our hostel was like 10 minutes out of the center so we saw a lot walking towards the center. It was a bummer that Lia got a cold excalty the day we left for Munich. But we had a lot of fun anyways. RED HOT CHILI PEPPERSLast Wednesday the Red Hot Chili Peppers came to Zurich. I went with Maite and some other friends. It was a great show. I was just a little disappointed that they didn't bring all the songs I was hoping for. They brought most a the song of the new album and an amazing pre-band. THIS WEEKENDOn Friday Maite and I went to watch the stars, on a hill near my house. It was so freaking cold, even though we took like 5 blankets with us. I love that I can do crazy stuff like this with my friends. On Saturday my oldest friend Raffaela, which came to visit me in Albama, came to visit me in Zurich. I took her with me to a party of my family. But we left a little early and went to a bar. After that we made a horror movie night at my place. As you can see I am always busy with work, school or spending time with my family and friends. But still I'm never really happy. I do enjoy all those moments. But it just hits me in the weirdest moments and then I'm suddenly sad after I've been in the best mood all day. I am trying to figure out, how to controll my mood swings and be more positive. The end of my exchange year came really fast. But in a few days I am gonna upload a blog post abbout my whole year and my experience. Since I've been back in Switzerland... My family and my two best friends came to pick me up at the airport. I was suprise I only expected my mom to come and get me. After some of my family members left, I went home, where my mom prepared brunch for me. I was really excited because breakfast is my favorite food. And I good bread! After one year with no real bread. I was craving Swiss food. Anyways after we ate, my friends and I went to Zurich where we met up with one of my best friends. He had school all morning and couldn't come to the airport. It was so weird to use puplic transportation and in general walking around in the city. Almost every time I started to talk in English. It was so weird the first few days.
For supper I went back home and spent some time with my family. Later that evening I met up with some other friends. Basically all of my first few back home I spent time with old friends. But I didn't feel like a part of the group. All of my friends got new friends. And I didn't fit in. I still don't feel completly comfortable with all those new people around, I feel like as if they don't like me. I was excited to come home, because all my exchange year I didn't really feel like I got any friends (For all my exchange friends please don't get offended by this), and when I finally was home I felt again like I don't have any friends. A lot of my friends changed or are not even friends with my friends anymore. It was just a lot to handle. Now three weeks after I arrived here, I still have to convince myself everytime to do something wit my friends, because I am afraid of the feeling to be left out. Just the other day I talked to a really good friend, who confronted me with the fact, that I don't seem really happy to be around my friends. And I told him all this, how I feel. And he made me realize that I have just been back for three weeks, for me it felt like I have been back for like three months. He told me to give it some time, to spend more time with my friends and getting settle in my group again. I feel like I have never been so busy in my life like right now. I am running around for my mom, my job that I am starting in August, and I just got a summer job at Mac Donalds. All in all I am trying to get as much done, as long as I can. I just wanted to say again how grateful I am for my Mother back home and for Penny my American Mom. I got 23 days left before I have to go home. A few weeks I go i just wanted to go home and I was so done with everything here. But I don't wanna go home anymore. Or at least not that soon. But I can't change the fact that I have to go home. On the other hand I'm excited to see my family and friends. But the more I talk about it, the more it gets real I have to get ready to go home. What I've been doing the past few weeks...The last week of April we had Eagle week in school. Everyday we dressed up different and we had several activities trough out the weeks. I have been to the fair with Marco and his little brother. I have been spending a lot of time with my friends and Penny. I have been involved in the preparations for the Musical production of the school.
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