The end of my exchange year came really fast. But in a few days I am gonna upload a blog post abbout my whole year and my experience. Since I've been back in Switzerland... My family and my two best friends came to pick me up at the airport. I was suprise I only expected my mom to come and get me. After some of my family members left, I went home, where my mom prepared brunch for me. I was really excited because breakfast is my favorite food. And I good bread! After one year with no real bread. I was craving Swiss food. Anyways after we ate, my friends and I went to Zurich where we met up with one of my best friends. He had school all morning and couldn't come to the airport. It was so weird to use puplic transportation and in general walking around in the city. Almost every time I started to talk in English. It was so weird the first few days.
For supper I went back home and spent some time with my family. Later that evening I met up with some other friends. Basically all of my first few back home I spent time with old friends. But I didn't feel like a part of the group. All of my friends got new friends. And I didn't fit in. I still don't feel completly comfortable with all those new people around, I feel like as if they don't like me. I was excited to come home, because all my exchange year I didn't really feel like I got any friends (For all my exchange friends please don't get offended by this), and when I finally was home I felt again like I don't have any friends. A lot of my friends changed or are not even friends with my friends anymore. It was just a lot to handle. Now three weeks after I arrived here, I still have to convince myself everytime to do something wit my friends, because I am afraid of the feeling to be left out. Just the other day I talked to a really good friend, who confronted me with the fact, that I don't seem really happy to be around my friends. And I told him all this, how I feel. And he made me realize that I have just been back for three weeks, for me it felt like I have been back for like three months. He told me to give it some time, to spend more time with my friends and getting settle in my group again. I feel like I have never been so busy in my life like right now. I am running around for my mom, my job that I am starting in August, and I just got a summer job at Mac Donalds. All in all I am trying to get as much done, as long as I can.
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