Have you ever felt like no one cares about you? Have you ever felt left out? Have you ever felt like no one hears you? If every single person would answer these questions truthfully, maybe we would be nicer to each other. Because I feel like that almost every single day. People are tired of getting hurt and build a wall around them. Just care about their on well being and not what the other person might feel. What makes me feel not wanted? It breaks my heart every time a little more going on Facebook, seeing my exchange student friends getting tagged in posts how much they are missed of people. It hurts to realize no one is missing you, no one ever thinks about you. And when I tell people how I am they are telling me I shouldn't be upset and not everything in their exchange year has been good and other stuff like that. Do you ever think how other people had it much worse than you? And none of them are complaining. But they should! People should know how much worse it could have went for them. How other people got treated and that not everything is perfect. Everyone is trying so hard to make it look like one perfect year. But not only does it hurt getting reminded how my past was, but it makes it much worse seeing how my friends here don't care about me.
Once again the feeling of being left out is coming back, when friends have big weekend plans but none of them bothers to ask you. Then sitting at home being on social media, watching how much fun they are having. Or trying to tell people how you are actually feeling today, but they say to your face they don't care. Or they don't even have time to listen. Or don't even hit me up with a small message. I am not trying to say it is all the time like this. But such moments hit you just once in a while. And it wouldn't even be that bad, when you know you got someone to lean on. I am not saying this because I want pitty of other people. I want you, to realize how your behaviour can have an impact on other people. Maybe even just a small message once in a while or call. Just know how you're treating people and think before you say something that could maybe hurt other people.
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On Thursday morning I left with my family to Vallais for a short vacation. We drove up there by car. We made a stop at the at the Furka Pass, where we went inside of a glacier. We arrived pretty early at our appartment. So we went to eat lunch and afterwards to a suspension bridge. It was making me sick. The next day we went to Brig, where we went to the old castle, getting groceries and swimming at the Brigerbad Spa. For supper we made Raclette, like we Swiss people like to do. My sister left me behind on Saturday morning. So I went hiking with my family and Go Kart Downhilling. It was really fun. The old village was so beautiful, it was amazing to see this old structre of buildings. For the last day my father had planned to go paragliding with his wife, but we ended up going hiking at the Aletschglacier. The weather the whole weekend wasn't bad at all. It was way warmer than I expected it to be. All in all I had a fun weekend, even though it's really stressful to go on vacation with my family. HOME IS WHERE THE MOUNTAINS AREThere is been happening a lot in my life, and I still feel like I am doing nothing. School is going great. I have friends, I feel comfortable with and right now the classes aren't that hard. But just some teachers are making me furious. I feel like they have no common sense. Other than that, in school everything is going pretty well. SPENDING TIME WITH FAMILY AND FRIENDSI spend a lot of time with Lia and Maite. September 24thI went hiking with Maite on the Titlis. We had a lot of fun, even though we didn't get that far with hiking. On our way to Engelberg we saw Switzerland in different ways. And for a short stop we were in Lucerne. OKTOBERFEST 2016With Aline and Lia I went one week later to Munich. It was a crazy short trip. We went shopping in the morning until the afternoon and in the evening we went to the Wiesn. Our hostel was like 10 minutes out of the center so we saw a lot walking towards the center. It was a bummer that Lia got a cold excalty the day we left for Munich. But we had a lot of fun anyways. RED HOT CHILI PEPPERSLast Wednesday the Red Hot Chili Peppers came to Zurich. I went with Maite and some other friends. It was a great show. I was just a little disappointed that they didn't bring all the songs I was hoping for. They brought most a the song of the new album and an amazing pre-band. THIS WEEKENDOn Friday Maite and I went to watch the stars, on a hill near my house. It was so freaking cold, even though we took like 5 blankets with us. I love that I can do crazy stuff like this with my friends. On Saturday my oldest friend Raffaela, which came to visit me in Albama, came to visit me in Zurich. I took her with me to a party of my family. But we left a little early and went to a bar. After that we made a horror movie night at my place. As you can see I am always busy with work, school or spending time with my family and friends. But still I'm never really happy. I do enjoy all those moments. But it just hits me in the weirdest moments and then I'm suddenly sad after I've been in the best mood all day. I am trying to figure out, how to controll my mood swings and be more positive. |
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