I have been thinking a long time about this. I was never sure if I could make it. But I made this decision about a week ago and made plans about how to implement this whole cleansing procedure.
I will still be posting blog posts once in a while but I won't be using Facebook, Instagram and Snapchat for 5 weeks.
How I came to this decision?
I myself think social media has a bad influences on us all. It makes us compete with each other and compare our lives. We don't even enjoy the here and now. So much time gets wasted being on all different kinds of social media. I wanna see if I actually feel better after 5 weeks and if i can go on with even a longer time with no social media.
Even though you may want to move forward in your life, you may have one foot on the brakes. In order to be free, we must learn how to let go. Release the hurt. Release the fear. Refuse to entertain your old pain. The energy it takes to hang onto the past is holding you back from a new life. What is it you would let go of today?
I couldn't wait to go back to Switzerland when I was in America, but now all I wanna do is redo my exchange year. I miss so many people. And the worst part is having not only American friends but also best friends living all over the world. And you just want to talk to them but it's really not the same to text or call a person, when you saw them everyday for a year. You just went to school and could tell each other everything. For a long time I thought I had a bad experience, but how can an experience be bad at all? With two great host families supporting me no matter what. And knowing that whenever you get back you will always have someone waiting for you. Can't thank the people enough who where truly a blessing to me in such a short time. But not only do I miss my friends and family but also did I never thought I could miss my boyfriend this much. We didn't get to know each other shortly before I had to leave, so we didn't have much time with each other. But he was also the most important person, during probably my hardest time. So after nearly 9 months of a long distance relationship I really just want to go back to Alabama.
"Play it cool boy, real cool."
1. TO SINK INTO SELF-PITY
If you keep asking why me, you'll never get to the ground of it. Self pity makes a huge deal about some bad luck. Instead of an ease it puts everything in negativity. And apart of that it annoys all the people around you.
2. ALWAYS LISTEN TO OTHER
Usually no one knows us as good as ourselves. So does it make sense to make decisions about outfits, drinks or whatever based on what other people tell us to. Rather ask: What do I like? What make ME happy? What is good forMe? Even when the answer might be something else, than the rest of the world would have given you.
3. TO LIVE IN THE PAST
Memories are nice and a little bit of nostalgia isn't bad with a glass of red wine in the evening. But who lives in the past puts more weight in the past than the present, and misses instant. And doesn't realize how beautiful it is right now, and might be something we would like to look back to later.
4. TO SEE THE FUTURE AS A RESCUER
Right now everything stinks - but oh well, someday everything is going to get better or not? Dreams about the future are nice and motivating or even exciting. But if we always hope for even better and bigger, we miss - once again - the present. The only time, we can actually bring in shape.
5. TO COMPARE YOURSELF WITH OTHERS
There are thousands of reason to envy other people about what they might have. Maybe the pretty body of your best friend even though she is eating all the time. Or even the pretty awesome career of the person you met last weekend. But the good thing is: It has abosultely nothing to do with yourself. Rather focus on your strengths and what you love to do.
6. TO ALWAYS PUT YOURSELF BACK IN THE LINE
Between the girlfriend, the shoulder-to-cry-on, the daughter, party crasher, athlete and being a work ace the most important things gets forgotten: YOURSELF. If you're regularly alone, listen to your inner you and do exactely what feels right, is collecting energy and balanced and therefore ready again to achive all the duties.
7. TO ALWAYS DEPEND ON OTHERS
You have a boyfriend? Great. And in addition a best friend? Even better. But your luck or bad luck isn't depending on either one of them or anything else. It is is important that we learn to spend time by ourselves but still have blast and also to be strong and independent.
"Always bear in mind that your own resolution to succeed is more important than any other."
After two weeks off school I had to get used to studying and doing homework on regular bases again. One thing I miss about America that
never had to study for any exams but in Switzerland I wouldn't pass
Well this is the first reason I haven't been posting a lot lately but also
am kind of stressed out with work. I wouldn't really say stressed out.
Just really busy. Having two jobs is really hard. I need to get good feedback
in my apprenticeship but also I want to have some money to put aside to
o traveling. But I am really glad I keep everything on track.
And there was a cabaret with a conférencier -
and there was a city
with the name Berlin,
in a country
and that was the end of the world.
The musical cabaret was really fascinating. Based on the book BERLIN STORIES.
Looking for inspriation to write brings the American author Cliffrd Bradshaw to Berlin in 1929. He gets a room in the cheap guesthouse of Ms. Schneider. Invited from a travel buddy, Cliff celebrates New Year's Eve at the Kit Kat Klub. The Kit Kat Klub is a known scene for amusement. And soon enough Cliff meets Sally, who works there as a singer. Sallly needs somewhere to stay at since she doesn't work at the Kit Kat Klub. Already the next day she moves in with Cliff at Ms. Schneider's... Mr. Schulz a nice with a own fruit shop also lives at Ms. Schneider's falls passionatly for Ms. Schneider, when the Nazis are starting to show more and more hate. Ms. Schneider decides to break up their engagement when the Nazis keep getting more power. Cliff is shoked by the fascism and wants to leave Berlin with the pregnant Sally as soon as possicle. She isn't pleased by this decision. And likewise the conférencier Sally doesn't want to know anything about politics - the whole life is just a cabaret. Everyone just on an escape and in constant fear, and ends up packing their stuff. But Sally gives her beloved fur coat as payment for an abortion, to start working again at the Kit Kat Klub. Shortly beofre the Nazis take over Germany Cliff leaves Berlin.
The musical was amazing. The songs were absolutely catchy. But not only that. The plot was fasicnating, on one hand you had the really amusing side of the story, in the Cabaret and the happy life everyone tried to keep. "Live and let live!" But on the other hand, life was rough, you could barely afford to live at all. The musical goes deep and is shocking. Showing that scene of Berlin shortly before the Nazis took over Berlin, is really eye opening. You try to enjoy the last moments you got, knowing that you never know what is going to happen tomorrow.
If you wanna find out if Cliff finally finishes his book? And where he and Sally end up? I really recommend to watch it.
Hope you liked my review. I am looking forward to post more culture and literature updates.
If you're not against it, then you support it. Or practically.
"However difficult life may seem, there is always something you can do and succeed at."
I was going to write my New Years Resolutions but instead I think it's much more intresting and motivating to make a bucket list for 2017.
1. Learn Spanish.
I've been trying to learn Spanish for about two years now. But I always quit. So this year I will keep going.
2. Connect with past teachers.
Many of will remember our past teachers as cruel and mean. But all in all they just wanted to ensure we get on the right path. Teachers might not do everything right, but their intentions come from a good place and they want to see us win.
3. Volunteer work.
I always wanted to work at a dog shelter or something like that.
4. Plant a tree and manage to watch it grow.
I never managed to keep a plant alive. So this year I will get flowers and plants for my room.
5.Try out vegetarianism for 31 days.
There is so much food waste everywhere, and so many animals get treated cruel. I like meat but we all should buy our food resourceful.
6. Organize a picknick.
When summer is around the corner I want a big picknick, with a bunch of food and family and friends, like in the old days.
7. Go on a romantic Getaway.
I actually never mentioned my boyfriend. But more details coming soon.
8. Visit a castle.
When I was younger, I have been to a lot of castles in Switzerland but I haven't been in a while.
9. Help people in need.
We all should support the ones who lost their homes and families. A lot of programms give you the option to do that online trough money. But I wanna go big and help in refugees programs here in Switzerland.
Every year I set myself goals but keep forgetting them, this year I will keep my blog update and upload my bucketlist to bucketlist.org to keep myself up-to-date, and maybe add some stuff.
11. Do a color run.
I've been wanting to do a color run for two years now, I hope this fall is going to be the year!
12. Become more confident.
Lately I've been struggling being more confident, but I will keep working on that with my yoga and mediation. Can't wait for yoga to start this year again.
13. Go camping again.
It has been forever since the last time I have been actually camping.
14. Learn to drive.
This year I will hit the big 18 and will be able to drive. Be safe out there!
15. Send a message in a bottle.
In middle school I used to have a penpal, it would be fun to have one again.
16. Spend a day in a Spa.
No explanation needed.
17. Sleep under the stars.
18. Get published in a newspaper.
In a few years I willhopefully attend the school of journalism and for that I need at least 3 published articels in a newspaper.
19. Color my hair.
Change means a new haircolor. Thinking about a dirty blond or honey kissed hair.
20. Go skinny dipping.
Hard to believe I've never been skinny dipping huh.
I hope you had a great start in the new year. Can't wait to get started on my bucketlist and have a fresh start.
I hope that in this year I make mistakes. Because if you are making mistakes, then you are making new things, trying new things, learning, living, pushing yourself, changing yourself, changing your world. You're doing things you've never done before, and more importantly, you're doing something.
Sleep is the best meditation.